There are many truth seekers in the world, people searching and seeking truth. For some people the question arises: “When can I stop seeking… When am I done?” though usually the question is phrased as “WHEN AM I DONE?!!!!”
The truth seeker path is extremely difficult for it is firstly an individual path. Regardless if you are in a relationship or not, you will experience extreme feelings of isolation and loneliness.
I have spoken with many truth seekers who have been single for quite some time despite their best efforts, these are people who are going through the process of purifying their cup of water.
I have also spoken with many truth seekers in relationships. They have a mind that is very independent and they think very uniquely. Both paths are similar though individual truth seekers will thrive (meaning grow) better in one environment compared to the other.
When we are born we are undefended. We are overly trusting to survive on Earth. We are given a cup of pure water. Over time other people and experiences put things in our cup, mud, toxins, low self-esteem.
Yes we are overly trusting when we first start but why wouldn’t we be? In spirit we are all one and our cups are all full.
But as we live the human life we have different experiences, one happens when people become jealous of the purity of our cup of water. They want to drink from it, they want to possess it. They want to taste its innocence to feel pure once again. (This in my professional experience is one of the reasons we still see a lot of childhood sexual abuse in our culture. An adult’s cup has become so dirty, not necessary a fault of his or her own but from their childhood circumstances etc. that they’ll abuse a child to feel his or her innocence for themselves so that they can feel pure again. This obviously does not work.)
We also just have normal human experiences and so our cup gets dirty. If you’re walking through the country on a dirt road, chances are some dirt and dust is going to get into your cup. This happens..
At some level the truth seeker knows and more importantly feels (is aware) that their cup of truth has become tainted. The cup becoming tainted is part of the process. You’ve tasted pure truth and pure being but until you’ve tasted the tainted water you could never truly appreciated its purity. This is why we are here, to learn, live and appreciate what we have always had. This is why the human experience is so highly valued.
After your cup has become tainted with mud, beliefs and defense mechanisms the next step is to begin to remove these things. Through walking a path of integrity, following your heart, meditating, going into nature, doing yoga, playing music, all these methods and many more are all about getting back to your essential purity.
As you arrive there you then begin to walk around the Earth with a golden chalice of water.
Not only does it taste great but what you will also find is that other people are naturally drawn to you. Your cup has become a template to show others what truth and purity are because everyone here is also searching to purify their cup of water.
The truth seeker stage is the most difficult because you feel the most alone and the most uncertain. You’re creating truth from uncertainly. This is never comfortable. The shift to the next phase is to move from truth to trust. Practice trusting yourself, trusting what you’re thinking and feeling. This is truly ‘trusting the universe’. Not as a mind concept but of you being an extension of what you can personally feel.
In the trust stage you begin to share your cup with others and yourself. It tastes so good so appreciate what you have done.
Another wonderful part of this stage is the ability to taste the cups of others. For all the truth seekers looking for a solid long-lasting relationship it is in this stage where you will finally meet someone. Not only will you strongly desire to share your cup of truth with your lover and also find it comes very easy but you will also get to taste his/her cup of truth as well. What a sweet gift this is! To share and taste the cup of truth gained from your partner’s unique life experience. What a joyful experience this is.
The truth seeker moves from: innocent purity –> distrust and uncertainty as a result of experiencing pain –> isolation –> search for individual truth –> process of purification of their cup –> personal clarity and truth–> trust of the self and experiential knowledge of being part of the universe –> true love and happiness –> pure joy
So for people who ask me “When am I done seeking?”. The answer is soon or eventually. If it is solely your mind becoming frustrated by things not working out the way you ‘think’ they should you might still be purifying. If on the other hand you just feel that you are done and have learned what you needed to learn than you are probably ready to move on. In both cases begin to trust yourself more. And play with both, the path is never linear.
Begin trusting what you feel and following it. Begin accepting and trusting what you think and not judging it or judging yourself. For the crazy racing mind, just accept that it is a necessary part of your brain needing to fire. It might not mean much. Very quickly you’ll find that your mind slows down. Very quickly you’ll find you feel much more connected with yourself and all things.
You’re beginning to trust and love yourself.